lately, things are jus like WHOA. honestly, i've never really expected things to feel this different, i mean yeah its senior year but on the real why does it have to feel different? its not that i don't like it but i want to know why though. I guess people changed. I even noticed, shit is HELLA diffferent. For me, the people i've gotten close are always going to matter to me, either we faded or not. Senior year its jus another journey that i'm ready to conquer. Today, i had an assembly for college and stuff, gahd everyone one of us seniors we're just knocking the fuck out, sad though but i tried staying awake cos sometimes, i do want to know how things are and how things work for college i think i'm excited to meet that very first day of college knowing that i'm already in my own world, my own life i make my decisions and its up to me and always me no one else. I've started to learn to choose the best for me. I'm still learning to deal with the bumps and the rough times i'm going through, i never ready to give up but i'm ready to live it up with no regrets why i never give up. School is school yknow, i'm trying to focus more and start listening, even though im so freakin' tired, i'm right there listening too i even catch myself paying attention, weird right but i really gotta prove to myself i can do it. NO MORE FUCKIN UP no more c's in this case. I have so much to worry about in the future, college, sat's, grades, getting accepted ( but i'm not even sure yet, i'm just doing it to see if i could get accepted and qualified) but other than that i wana try and prove to myself im not lazy i can actually do it if i just try to focus alot more and not get distracted.
---it feels nice have just only 5 classes, i love it. I get to rest i even see my boyfriend almost everyday of my life. (: he's happy, well he better be! it never used to be this complicated or easy for us. Its now so easy that we can jus not fight as much. We still fight, its our daily doses knowing that we still love eachother and showing we still have that love. there's alot of things going through my head between him and i, since he's prolly going to the navy, which is i don't know, i mean HEY, my boyfriend is gona be a discipline guy!! (: hahaha. The scale of our relationship is at least about an 7.5 before it was above the scale and the lowest it went was about a 2, cos we had so many rough times it was jus >:[ yea!
----------other cases, i miss us trio, i wish it was us again NO ELSE well i mean not no else but i mean the people we go through, secrets we will share and keep it and never spill. that was us like a year ago till people started disappointing people but i still love you guys ALOT. i mean disappointments happen right? but i guess. I STILL LOVE US,TRIO at walnut HAHAHA. (:
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