For someone like me, i really can't handle too much at one time i tend to back down and let everything walk all over me.i don't like it either. ever since things have been falling out of place, i felt it was jus meant to happen, bound to happen sooner or later right? i try to put back that smile i always had, the normal me. yeah, i haven't been the person was before where i straight smile, loudmouth (: i noticed too. maybe all the little unreasonable things shouldn't even bother be, let things flow, life is life. its fuckin' reality. i'm jus a worrybug. i don't let things jus slide jus like that if i have second thought about it or what not. honestly, i need to relax on everything stop fuckin worrying about everything expect personally things but i mean in general. i'm too complicated. i know i've faded from my people that truely cares about me and new EVERYTHING about me when i'm down, they wouldn't let me walk around loooking sad. sorry. i never felt this way. its different but i hope you guys can accept it for me? i don't know. im trying to do what i can. so much things just keep adding on so much on my plate. where do all this stress come from? i don't know either. the good part that my family is kind of working things out. we all set our differences aside and be a family. MAYBE that one thing probably helped us alot. well i at least think so. welp, summer '09 is coming around the corner preettty sooon pretty excited jus only if i get to out of the house practically every week. 3 days is perfectly fine with me. (:
a senior in like whaat? 5 to 4 and half days? im excited. (: let's just see what this summer has in store for me.
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