a step forward

things and everything i think its getting better. let's start off what i did yesterday..

rene, danielle, jr, mariel,ivan and me, went to a funeral for our loving bestfriendclosestfriend's dad. it was said to come to think about it.. like ive thought about how many already died in my family, it hurts. and danielle was crying cos it gave her the flashback of things. then after the funeral we went to the reception, not enough choices but i guess it got me full. baby, was really tired cos he's been driving everywhere and he would always ask me if i wanted to drive, but im too lazy and i don't know if i can see over his car. yknow. then after the reception we all left.. dropped off mariel and ivan it was kina nicee having us three and our boys together, thats prolly like the first time! then rene and i went to his house we tried to sleep but we couldnt. HA! then around 6 we went to buffalo wild wings. (: its prettty goood but babe got a big burger and i couldnt even finish my half! then after we went to jj's kickback, i haven't been to a kickbaaack in so longgg.. ha! kev,marvin = newbestieboo,shan, pres&stephann they were all jus wow -_- HAHAHHAHA. its whatevers let em have some fun! i was basically out the whole entire day from 9AM TO 10PM basically! amazing haha. i think my dad is ready to let me do what i want but prays for me to come home everynight knowing im alright and i will be just be more than alright, ill come home knowing that im perfectly fine! annd now im jus really tiyaaaaaaaaad. i think yesterday was basically one of the best days ever throughout this whole summmer. but schoool soon and i prolly have to change up my schedule on the first or second day of school... cos fuckin ALG 2! putaaaaas! im such a failure.and thanks to my dad for reminding how much i disappoint him and myself and how much im such a failure. i need to prove him wrong forsuree. and today we first, finally went to the church after how long ive went to twice sooo i think im going to start too more often since yeah.