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summer is becoming one good one actually even tho i haven't been out much yet, but the fun will come around. anyways, lastnight i had the worst meltdown ever, like i didn't know what was wrong me i couldn't sleeep til 4AM knowing that something was wrong me, i tried to sleep it off but i keep opening my eyes? no it wasn't him, i was jus being weird. but everyday, things have been falling into places in life itself, but not in my relationhsip we keep making a deeper hole and we can't fix, i mean we both have some reasonable reasons to be the way we are but we don't intend to. well i at least don't intend to be this way. gah, i need tooo stop all this dumb dramatic shit that's coming my way.
anywho, where's my girls?! yeah i don't know. surprisely my bestfriend mariel came and visited me likee thursday with her boyfriend and his two dogs well, one of them was really his. oh how ive missed her. and the other one well, she getting her own life on. even though i havent been going out lately, im not trying to ask too much to go out as much as i want too, im trying not tooo. my girls and i haven't really REUNITED together yet, well hopefully soooon. i don't know im jus loooking at the possiblities.
honestly, i finally figured whose really there for me from the start and to the beginning of everything and ending. it really opened my eyes. i actually have TWO real bestfriends and enough close friends for me to trust them from the bottom of my heart.
welp, two more weeeks, maybe going out this weeek i should try before i got to schoool 7HOURS of hell, damn gamboa had to dropped cos he's lazyasss couldnt put he's head down and he had to give up after 4days, FAG(: