falling into pieces

time to open up even though no isn't going to give a shit anyways ha. i don't know what to do or what to say. yeah we've been through tough shit, we give eachother, tough love. ever since we' ve been fighting, its been hella hard, i've been putting up with every shit you give me, and i'm so calm. you keep telling me you can't treat me right, i really think that YOU CAN you jus keep going back to your old short temper because you don't know anything how to fix anything. that's why im here with you to make sure everything goes right. i don't depend on you , i got my own mind, i don't need your help, i can help myself, i'll come to you when i really need someone. i don't need to be dependence, i need to be independent. even though people take the adavtange to fuck around with, i can handle. yeah, i'm vulernable but you already know i'm learning. i've been learning alot from you. your mentality is IDGAF. i already know. everything seems to be falling into pieces, like i don't know how to put them back anymore, or one of us doesn't try to. sometimes i feel like you don't know me anymore, you can't handle how i am now. more and more everyday i'm jus praying that you won't leave or give up on us. i think were pretty legit, who gives a fuck what other people say. and to the people that you've talked to about US we're gona prove them right. don't keep thinking like youre not meant to be in a relationship is meant for you to try to work it out and make it meant to be. cos wasting your time on a relationship that you want but won't fix is dumb. there's alot of things that i can say, but im jus waiting for you to come around and fix your attitude on how to treat me, you don't need to treat me like shit and i never think it like that. all in all, you're my boyfriend, im here all the time, im not going anywhere till i know that you can't handle this anymore. if you can't, you already know just tell me. like i said before i'm ready for the best or the worst, i really think i'm ready for the best for the both of us (: i know were having a rocky start for our first official month of being together but i know we can get our relationship back on track. i care so much.

well today, hopefully i'll be seeeing you. for a short amount of time.