is it tough love or what?

lately, is it jus me or im jus ruining my life? am i jus fucking up becos i don't get what i want or imjus too spoiled. i wonder if im ever making my parents happy? or even satisfied. can my life get anymore worst? i feel such shit. "don't do anything bad or you'll dad will kick you out of this house" really?! then why hasnt he done it? or he's giving me tough love but why isnt my mom trying to back me up? like i don't understand yeah they care but why threatening me? is it the only way that im gona start listening, ive been trying to pull through trying to stand strong and not fallback through all this shit. even if i runaway they're ready to kick me out, yeah strict parents? wtf can i do. i know they're doing things for the best for me but i mean by treating me like shit, don't even ask how im feeling about all of this. maybe life would be easier i wasn't around maybe things would be better, so i wouldnt cry anymore or maybe even give them shit that they'll get mad about. i have nothing to go too. i mean i do buut how? i don't know i think they dont give a fuck about how i feel? im fuckin growing up your telling me this shit? ready to kick me out? then do it. cos no one isnt gona try to get me anywayys. like who would? my mom is too scared to go against my dad cos he threatens to leave maybe i should jus leave or get away for awhile i don't fuckin know. i have the shittys life eveeer..i don't know if it jus tough love or what? maybe it is and im jus overreacting.