oveer my heaad..

let's just say things are up and down right now..

i think too much and i think OVER it. there's so much im going through right now. i wonder how im gona be when i turn seventeen which is in a month.. are my parents gona change how they treat me as im sixteen? caaause they are mad strict on me, life is bullshit to me right now. buut im guessing im realizing everything but sometimes when i do i don't listen to it. i jus blow it off all the time. i think its because im not listening to myself not suppor in myself. i fall back to where i was when i was starting to move forward instead i go backward.
so much problems but you know im going to change that ASAP. pleaaaaase let that HAPPEN!

rigghht now he's been making me happy, yeah i haven't talked to him but like crraaap i REALLLY think its jus the wrong time to talk talk to anyone caaaaas i can't reallly do anything? nah meaan? he's been making me soo happy its like wow where did this come from? i havent beeen like this? buut i don't wana give up on it. i really dont, but im so unsure. its like BAAAAAAAAAAAAADtiming. effff!

ive realized alot and matured a little i hope later on this will give me a way to prove my parents i can do it. [: