leave or stay

i swear i thot you were around for friendwise.i really thot. i know i fucked up reading that whole conversation was a hell of a mistake, its actually a mistake to keep you around when you wanted to leave. im ashamed that you've been like this... i give you too much and i think you shoulda listen to other people. then DO IT leave. you don't wana stay im actually wanting you to leave, fuck it if you matter i dont care i thot you did but i changed my mind. i cared soo much about our friendship and you know people will know i can waste people time? thanks?! i dont fuckin waste people time when I KEEEP GIVING THEM HINTS about wsup. annd we've been through this time after time. "its hi and bye" fuck that shit. you've been on my mind i was planning not to give a fuck about anyone says that they wouldnt approve BUT FOOOOOOL i was jus gona change that jus for you. but no. i can't now since you wana leave then leave. im not holding you back anymore im done doing that to people that matterd to me! all guys want from me is a relationship and if they dont get what they wants its "hi and bye" typa shiiiit! i can't deal with anymore i gave up. YOU WIN! fuck everything we even had as friends. do what you want. im done with shit like this. i cant handle it anymore. im not gona cry caaaaaaaas i know its the best for things and us. i'll still care but i dont want to cas you were part of my life but your jus gona walk out like you did well almost. now its time to walk out.
i fuckin hate shit like this. i thot you knew, i thot you knew wsup i thot this and that! we have this damn arguement EVERYTIME!

but what the fuck can i do... im done, i gave up. have a fuckin goodlife. i hope youll find someone that you want and wants you back.