there's so many things thats been running through my mind about us.
We've had various amounts of our downs but it never brought us to the end of our story. We had things that would troubled us to want to leave but deep down we're still holding onto eachother whether shit is so bad. I never imagined being with you would be so difficult but you're pretty much worth it. Problems we have, I still manage to still be with you for 6months, even though we had our tough times. For being with you for 6months made me want to know what's there later on for us, continue our journey with eachother? We fucked up, we have to admit that. We didn't have much agreement on anything or on everything but we had an agreement to stay with eachother when things are tough. Last night, having dinner with you, talking about "why me?" and people and especially me thought that you would've left me, but you're proving everyone wrong i guess that you're not like how you were before. And why you? because i told you enough that i saw something that was good in you, yeah i even told you i wasnt even expecting to be with you cause the way you were before made not want to even think about it but then again, you changed my mind which is pretty good to know that. I didn't even think i'd care so much for a boyfriend like i care so much about you, its hard to explain how much i care because really everytime we had our moments to leave, i can never leave permanently. Everytime i should have left i feel like if i did I'm missing my other half of me that keeps me sane at the same time when im mad or disappointed. I dont know if people know that i care about you a lot, like i dont know if they can see it like some people do. 6months has been a fuckin ride, i love you. I think we're pretty much stronger than i think but there's one thing i gotta do, but also LET ME HAVE MY WAYS! sometimes, im in this relationship too! this is our second fuckin chance don't screw up cos really, im hoping for the best for the both of us. Our ups made us stand even stronger, i actually love having deep conversations with you, you actually do listen but you play dumb dumb sometimes too (: I don't how to explain all of this but all i can say in three words is : i love you.
