Thinking of everything I've been going through and continuing to go through it, i think i became pretty strong even though i started to care less about how things are going even i want those things back, but its me not caring anymore or slowly not caring. I'm moving forward, thats all it matters to me.
Also, even though my relationship still has its ups and downs, we still manage to make it up, i know there's time i should never forgive but thats how much I want to fix everything with this one. I don't think I have ever fought this hard and dealt with so many things that I thought I wouldnt deal with. I know people know how my relationship is but you guys really should understand, he's something really special to me, I'm really scared of losing this one. I worked hard to keep this one even tho we had our fights, i managed for the pass 6 and half months. My relationship just gets better well it tries and it works. I don't know he makes me want to just be with him even though i shouldnt for certain reasons but what can i say this fool makes me not want to lose him or even leave him when i should have but i decided to just stick with him and see where all of this is going later on and cause i love him.
